This semester was so stressful. I ended up enjoying one of my classes (video game programming) so much that I neglected my other assignments. I am failing a physics class even though I feel that the material is well within my grasp.
I wrote the best game in the class (in full 3D) but I am still so critical of my own work. I usually fall asleep and wake up dreaming about Java (generic classes last night).
I think I've developed OCD since I am constantly rereading my code and formatting it and trying to make it "perfect". I even worked on my game during my bus ride to/from work. And after all the hard work I did I still feel like I didn't do anything useful. I felt physically sick at one point this semester because of all the work. And on top of that I got attacked by my usual pollen allergies recently.
Also, I feel like there's a lot of pressure on me by the CS department at my school because I started an internship that I was nominated for. It's going well but I have sooooooo much to learn, and that I'm expected to know a lot of things I never learned in school, even though I am at the top of my class (in CS, not in physics, lol).
I miss taking classes like Japanese and French and just studying things for fun without worrying about the future. I miss playing classical guitar, listening to music and going to the gym like I used to. I wish I could travel.
What do you do when you reach this point?
This post has been edited by carnivroar: 19 May 2013 - 09:38 PM