But, when I was 18, I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior. That is the most profound, positive event to change my life.
I was addicted to many vices...except illegal drugs, because my brother was a dealer and I wanted nothing to do with that stuff, seeing how it destroyed his life, and by relation my whole family's lives. When I got saved, all of that changed. THe desires for those vices went away. COld turkey.
My life was on a positive trail at that point.
Fast forward 23 years. I was married, and was making a life for myself and my wife.
Until the night I woke to see her standing over me, ready to stab me to death. Do I need to say that changed my life?
First, my finances were destroyed. My reputation with friends was destroyed because who would believe that a woman would flip out and try to kill her husband?
My living situation changed. I went from nice house with niceties, to a one room apartment. That taught me the benefit of living a simplistic life, and not to get attached to 'things'.
I also sat down and learned how to interact with women, because I wanted someone in my life. Well, I learned to interact with women such that I now have enough women that I am never alone, unless I choose to be.
FInally, I learned that life is to be enjoyed in the moment, because we have no promise of a future, but at the same time, I set aside a portion of my income to pursue my dreams.
And, THAT is what I really needed to learn...pursue your dreams...don't let anyone stop you...and if they aren't along for the ride, they are welcome to get off the ride at any time, with no hard feelings from me, because the only one I will invest anything into is me.
I'm 30 and still haven't fully solved this problem. fml
I hope you get a handle on it soon, because in 30 years, it will go back to the way it was.