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I've been away from this site for quite some time now. I have had no real need for the help this website could offer for one discernible reason: I am a master programmer and am far superior to the rest of you. Bow before me!

No but really, I just haven't been programming a whole lot asides from school projects and homework (which I am rarely getting cause I've mainly been doing elective type courses for a couple semesters now).

So what brings me back? Reflection, I suppose.

When I first joined this website, I was but a fledgling coder, starry eyed, with big ambitions, a love for what I was doing so far, but a major lack of discipline and a fear of hard work. I would think to myself constantly, "Am I gonna have to write all these lines of code just to get an image to appear on screen?" or more pressing "how can what I'm doing now become an operating system? A program? The calculator in Windows?". A lack of knowledge created an unknown battlefield in my mind. Lofty ambition turned from big motivator to fuel for fear and resistance.

It probably also doesn't help that I kept trying to learn C, not a bad idea, but may someone have mercy upon my ignorance as I have no idea how one even includes a library into your code. I blame my laziness, what I wanted to do in C was probably well documented somewhere in both big words and small.

But enough of all that though, I'm speaking in almost purple prose and flowery speech.

Why am I here and what am I doing right now?

I'm here cause I was recalling how I use to use this website during a stream a while back and I wanted to use the blog here and maybe become a more active member of this community to help me in my quest to become a developer.

I have partially alluded to what I'm doing right now, but to elaborate, I am taking steps to learn how to program. I am currently doing The Odin Project to gain skills as a web developer, with the lofty goal of gaining employable skills by the end of this year. An ambitious goal, but certainly far more within reach than creating a hit game on Steam with nothing more than tutorials in hand, meager art skills, and a love for Harvest Moon.

I have been through a lot these past two years though. I've been through a lot since the day I first joined this website. Currently, I am a Junior at my University, but my academics have been slipping through my fingers in the worst way possible. Facing the very real possibility that I could be forced out of my college due to poor GPA or the like, I wish to focus as much of my energy as possible into making myself into a respectable, employable developer.

As I see it right now, my two fates regarding University is as follows:

A) I fail and have no academic back up plan at all
B) I get my BS, but lack any sort of proper skills at all, or means to show those skills
B-1) My senior project is hell because I lack the skills and knowledge to do it

With all this in mind, and knowing so many people who have left college for a job as a developer with only the knowledge they possess, I wish to try and be like them. I have wasted so much time, and I'm tired of working near minimum wage jobs, hating what I do, having no pride in what I do. I wish to do something that even when it frustrates me, when I finally find the solution to my issue, I am filled with a euphoric sense of accomplishment. I want to make money most of all though, I want to make the cash flow that leads to a person not needing to worry about anything in the way of financial stress.

My journey started about a week or two ago, and so far I have enjoyed streaming my progress with The Odin Project. I am also trying to expand and do my own little things as well, do my own self studies in things that interest me. I want to eat, breathe, and somehow father software by the end of this year.

I can not fail in this task, it's not an option. Even if the deadline must be extended, I must meet my goal.

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23 February 2018 - 08:16 AM
Welcome back.

What's your undergrad degree in?


14 March 2018 - 06:00 PM

modi123_1, on 23 February 2018 - 10:16 AM, said:

Welcome back.

What's your undergrad degree in?

Ah, sorry, missed this message.

My undergrad degree. I have no idea how to answer this as I don't know what an undergrad degree is, lol. What I will say is that I am currently working on an Information Science degree with a minor in Business.


20 March 2018 - 11:00 AM
You mentioned you were a 'Junior at my University' getting a BS. I was wondering what the BS degree in.


10 April 2018 - 05:36 PM

modi123_1, on 20 March 2018 - 01:00 PM, said:

You mentioned you were a 'Junior at my University' getting a BS. I was wondering what the BS degree in.

Gosh, I'm so sorry for being so late with replies. For some reason I'm not getting notifications in my email.

I think I may be confusing something here, either in my explanation or my understanding, but to answer your question as best as I can, my school would label my major as "Computer and Info Sciences, Computing" and the Major Concentration in "Information Science".

If this isn't a satisfactory answer, I hope to figure out how to answer you.
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